Show me how it ends, it's alright/Show me how defenseless you really are/Satisfied and empty inside/That's alright, let's give this another try...

Song Reference: "So Cold" - Breaking Benjamin

So I finally catch up with my old friend Angie (not Angie from my Yahoo groups), and her and I start talking about personal shit. I know it sounds difficult, but after everything said and done involving her as of late, I don't know if I can trust her.

To be honest, I'm just starting to rebuild trust with a lot of people I know, all things considered. I've been burned a lot in the past year, especially when I've needed people the most. I've had a lot of betrayal in my life from a lot of people I trusted more than anything. I'd name names, but I really don't enjoying spilling a few of them from my lips.

The point is, everyone's gotta drop my name as "hey, I did this for him!", or "Hey! Look at the trash I can talk about Jonathan!". Everyone acts like I fucking piss and moan about them. For the idiots that still stick around here that like to drop my name like it's hot, let me tell you something. I'm pretty much over you. I don't talk about you, in fact, I leave your shitty lives alone. Your never-will-be wrestling career and your sham of a marriage don't mean shit to me.

Your words show me that at least I'm the mature one about this. For god fucking sake, I moved on already, can't you tell? I leave you three alone. If I wanted to drop your name, I'd be a man about it and do it somewhere that you guys would KNOW about. I would drop your name in a venue where you can defend yourself.

But whatever...it shows me that I'm the real fucking winner. At least you need me to survive.

One of my favorite songs said it best, "Save your breath, your soul is hollow".

That's the way it really is for everyone who likes to come around and say they're a friend and lie their little asses off. I'm sick of people pretending like they give a shit and want to be around, when they're nothing more than a bunch of hanger-ons. I stick my neck out for a whole list of people, and they do jack shit in return. No matter what I do, people still act like I owe them something.

Well next time the tree falls on your fuckers, I'm not going to help.